Some Naked Truth.

yeah referring to Glenn's blog, saying that he feels empty at times..

i guess it does happens on me somehow. esp this period of time, with no projects or major exams in hand.. naturally my mind wander ard more, thinking more on myself, abt my life and all that is going on..

everything seems well, everyone ard me is doing fine, nth too major is happening to upset me or leave me on a confuse state. yet at the sametime nothing in particular is brightening days up.

yes i am still happy, amazingly blessed.

maybe this is some point in time that im getting a little greedy, trying to ask for more.. but whats more i need? came to realised it might be LOVE. haha! most of it are coming frm family, friends for now..

and in recent days, a few have been asking me "oh, so, are you attached?" and when i say no.. i will go on explaining a little like i haven't find the right one or maybe the right one haven't been looking hard enough to spot me or maybe just isn't the right time now .. and than when this kinda conversation ends, it will keep me thinking for the next few hours.. counter-questions will start popping out, like "so when will it be coming?" or "when's gonna be the right time for it?"

yeah.. its not always a good thing to be a thinker isn't it.. ;p

and on the other note, sometimes its the right guy wrong timing or vice versa..

must be thinking! why suddenly i have so much thoughts abt love. maybe its because have been long since i had this special feeling for someone... not exactly in love, not exactly crush..

its been particularly different since the day i saw him. yet thinking abt it, he isnt particularly good looking or someone with great charisma. just a very very simple guy. if you think im simple, he's simpler..

recalling those gd ol' days~~~~Edmund, was the only guy i really like since the day i know abt this feeling.. since primary 6.. haha! manz, this sounds sooo long ago yea? those few ppl who followed me through primary sch up to sec sch shld knw abt him ;) and of course the few others ive told to.. though i cant exactly describe wad r/s we were having back then.. we used to write letters to each other.. and pass them through our best friends.. haha! that lasted for a year.. we left primary school and went separate ways to our secondary sch lives.. he got a few gfs during that time.. we kept in contact and all.. i still had this feeling for him..

gradually, i mature, things changed.. i realised how funny it was.. i know i wasnt love... but maybe just admiration? memories were made.. no regrets that things didnt turn out well cause i know he isnt the one for me.. and after maturing i knw its seriously impossible. he's a nice guy indeed, but not someone i wld love and be with..

thats how much time can change humans, feelings and love.. thats why i really admire those who held their love through sec sch days, through poly/JC, up till Uni and get into working society, ending off with marriage.. how they walk one another through the diff changing periods of life. amazing isn't it? take my hat off them manz.. a few of my cousins ended off this way, attending their wedding dinner wasn't just a dinner but an affair to really celebrate and toast with joy~

let fate decide! =) i know if its meant to be it will... its gonna be a bonus to be in love. for those who're, do cherish alrights.. its not easy~

loves!